Time Has Passed

I went on a walk last night

To my surprise I was not surpassed in my own thought

Denied access to my own thought I created a world that did not exist

Even with my hands on the floor and my knees following

I was still thinking that there was more behind the invisible force that kept me from taking that first step out

I could splash the water against it

Hit it with my might yet still it stood tall as it always did

With no strength and with no weapon of mass destruction

My only choice would be my hands and feet

My head as hard as nails I would not let it stand in my way

I'm still stood here looking through that invisible force that puts light and lets me see

What I can have and what I can never hold

What the future has and what the world would dare do to me

Still my mind is else where in the form of a mat covered in colours of green, pink, blue and yellow

An odd combination as I never heard nor seen the true images that stand in the way of what I can handle

Mad at the world at myself and the world we call home

I was stood once again

Face to face with years to have passed

My skin has stretched to unbelievable transformation

From which the remaining parts both look and do not stand to seem the same as the once that was in the same body before

With longer hair

Eye sight as bad as ever

No thoughts still only with the need to survive

Only with the thought to take care of those around

I stand no chance to have a focal point

My mind wanders to great lengths but to find no wonder I wish to seek

Always finding nothing that makes me speak

Nothing to stand and make me quiver

Create an earthquake within my soul

I will not stand nor will I breath in

I will soon be the one sat in that seat

My eyes deceive once again

To see my reflection fall

Beauty was not an issue

Vanity isn't correct

The vanity of life and the vanity of the soul

How ugly mine truly is

I cannot hold the hatred I bring upon it

Nor the safety of the world

Could this really be saddening when you find that the wore person to be with is yourself

Replacing the demon that wishes the death of your soul to take over

I hold my ground still with this invisible force helping me see clearly its every move

I will hold my ground but let it out

Hold it down and Hold it up high

I will it

Will I